Clinics & Bad News.

Klinik Kesihatan Putrajaya.

itula tempat yang aku pergi tadi.
sebab.
aku nak ambil bekalan ubat untuk migraine aku.
dan juga untuk merawat mata aku.
tapi.
ramai betul orang sakit hari ni.
lama betul kena tunggu giliran.
bosan aku.
naseb baek ada buku yang sentiasa menemani aku.
'testing kate'
itulah tajuk buku tu.
haha.


so we arrived from the clinic at about 5 pm.
hu.
lama tak?
i went straight away to the cc since i saw my juniors yang sure gila tengah usha friendster instead of cari facts.hahaha.
when i passed by the phonebooth.
i saw aina yang aku sure gila nak call orang kat ipoh 2.
hehehe.
jadi aku singgah jap sebelum aina cakap


'ezzah.ada berita buruk!'

hah?
bad news?
regarding what?
debate is it?
hurm.i knew it.
sooner or later.
it'll happen.

so she told me the bad news or should i say one of the worst news ever.
aina & hajar dah jumpa cikgu rosmawati regarding ukm debate.
&& as we expected we're not allowed to go to picc to watch the final debate between smapk and seratas.
hurm.sebenarnya tak kisah sangat pun.
as i stated before.i dont feel like going to this year.
dunno why.
maybe it's the hint kowt.
*sigh*

oh.that's not the bad news lorh.

it's like adding a salt to my wound eh.
aina said that....


we're BANNED from entering any debate tournament next year!
wow.

me?
ezzah abdullah?
blacklisted?
hahaha.
sounded funny to my ears.
i feel like laughing my heart out eh.

but you know what?
it's the truth.

finally it's official that i am no longer a debater of sek.seri puteri.
hurm.mulut aku memang masin kan?

hearing that news coming from aina's mouth.
instead of being angry or mengamuk tak tentu pasal.
or should i say aku patutnya dah menjerit2 dah.
meluahkan rasa tak puas hati dengan kawan2 aku.
instead of doing all that.
what i do is diam seribu bahasa.
im speechless.
im at a loss for words i guess.
buntu.
i cant think of anything else.
i try hard not to cry.
not to break down in front of my friends & juniors.
but.
i cant helped it.
akhirnya air mata aku menitis gak.

aina & sarah yang cuba comforting aku.
thanks yah?

aina yang tiba2 cakap.

'ezzah.nak call wawa tak?'

dengar dia cakap macam tu.
nak tergelak pun ada.
tapi.
aku tahu niat dia baik.
aku pun cakap kat dia.

'aina.nak pinjam kad phone boleh?'

aku terus gi phonebooth & try call kakak aku la.
hurm.engaged pula.
biarlah.

wawa?
oh.bukan tak nak call tapi seganlah.
tak kan aku nak bebankan dia dengan masalah aku plak.
apa dia ingat nanti.
lagipun.
aku tak nak la kacau dia.
dia pun ada hidup sendiri & nak layan iqa dia lagi.
aku ni kawan ja.

*sigh*

so i instantly buka comp.
buka friendster jap.
oh.comment dari abg izzat.

abg izzat.saya rasa saya dah tak perlu dah no.kak ain tu sebab saya bukan debater dah.
huhu.

tiba2 tangan gatal nak bagi message kat wawa.
walaupun aku tahu dia takkan reply nya.
hahaha.
lega sikit bila tulis oww.
tak sangka macam tu ja
berakhirnya karier aku as debater.


sangat sadis & tragis.


p/s :tak dapat gi final ppm & final wind orchestra.timah kata buah ati dia gi ow.
buah ati aku gi tak? macam ya ja.hurm.enjoy yourself then.


biarlah aku di sini menjaga hati..