inilah dia.

hari baru pun bermula.

semalam dua kali menitis air mata tanpa sebab yang logika.
kemudian tidur tanpa sesuatu untuk pertama kalinya
setelah aku dapat benda itu.
mungkin itu yang terbaik lahh.


kemudian.pagi tadi sebak rasanya
melihat adik-adikku buat pertama kalinya
pergi ke pertandingan tanpa kami.


debat ukm 2008 is the best debate tournament ever for me.
teringat kenangan yang indah kami :)



then hari ini delegasi menteri komanwel datang melawat sekolah kami
showcase negara :)
hahaha.

aku sedih teringat satu perkara.
tapi tak apa lah.



besok tengok wind orchestra finale kat picc
band members : all the best.may the force be with you guys.



well.
i really really wanted to tell someone something
but then knowing myself
i know i wouldnt have the courage to do it
jangan kata dengar suara dia lagi
tengok muka pun aku dah tak mampu
i dont know whats the problem

maybe im the one to be blamed
im not understanding enough.is it?

or maybe im not that important to know anything anymore
or maybe ive never been that important as what i thought
because i thought we shared things with our best friend.
our sweetheart?
or am i wrong?

or maybe we shared certain important things with them.
i thought so.

but then it didnt turn out to be what i thought.
we shouldnt do that kot.
i mean sharing tu.
maybe kita akan kelihatan seperti queen control yang mahu
tahu segala-galanya.kan?

tidak bermaksud begitu.
tapi kadangkala kita perlu ada assurance sebenarnya
kehadiran kita juga bermakna dalam hidup mereka.
aku faham
semua orang ada cara tersendiri dalam meluahkan rasa hati
tapi tak salah kan?

berubah sekali sekala atas nama sayang :)


saying is one thing and doing is another.
faham tak?

ohh.huraiannya begini.
memang berkata-kata itu penting tapi
kata orang action speaks louder than words.
sebab all the beautiful sentiment in this world weigh less than a single lovely action :)
bila orang kata.kita percaya.
tapi kadangkala kepercayaan itu bukan hanya perlu dilafazkan
ia hanya perlu ditunjukkan.
bila kita tak mampu sekurang-kurangnya kita mencuba :)


if you didnt have the ability to do something for me,
i do understand dear.

but at least
show some effort.boleh?
sebab we know what a person thinks not when he tells us what he thinks
but by his action.
and i do appreciate whatever it is that you have done for me all this while.
most importantly.
you make me smile :)


but at least for once and forever.
be yourself and be honest with me.ok?



or i should just leave i guess.

i get it.

















































rasamacamterkejarkejar.